Tuesday, April 11, 2006
"When the pen stops moving and we see a straight line on the paper, we know that fellow has gone.." It was my chem tutor illustrating the working principle of NMR using the similar system setup, the one that we use to observe a patient's heartbeat, breathe, etc.
The girl sitting beside me was laughing.
Then the teacher asked us whether we understood what she's trying to say..
Of course I did, I told myself.. I was looking at it for most of the time in the day one month ago, and sobbing silently at the decreasing number shown on the screen.
It was hard for everyone.
When one of her pupils dilated, the doctor asked whether we wanted to carry out emergency treatment when the time came.
My father said no.
A few hours later, when she could not respond our calling by noding or shaking her head anymore, the relatives were considering dressing up for her to let her go with dignity. They moved away all the medical appatatus except for the oxygen supply system, which I insisted not to remove no matter what.
It was stupid.
I was not thinking rationally at that moment. I could not.
回来后复习GP读了很多有关euthanasia的articles..每次读完都会笑。。
不知道。。我不是专家，没什么发言权。
可是我还是会嘲笑那些笔者把事情看得这么简单。
When you sit down, voicing out your view with a pen or on the keyboard, it is just not the same thing when you are really watching your loved ones drifting away from you--far more different!
I don't know.
我只有20岁，人生经验也很少。朋友说，当我们爸爸妈妈这个年龄的人看到身边的人一个接着一个离开时。。。不知道，无法猜测他们的感伤，他们的痛。
有一天，我们也要像他们一样，失去很多我们爱的人之后，抬起头继续面对前面的生活。
It's hard, but it's real.
Fang Fang on 6:53 pm