Friday, April 29, 2005
好吧, 今天没上学.就不知道因为什么莫名其妙地失落起来.
我觉得自己很寂寞, 不是因为没有朋友陪我, 也不是因为不适应新环境... 也说不上为什么, 就是觉得怕人的寂寞! 当昨天深夜醒来, 当望着另外三个人睡熟的时候, 当回想起从前, 回想起杏儿的时候. 开始SMS天一, 或许真像她说的那样, 有时候挺不被理解的.
不想上学, 没心情读书, 不被理解, 想大病一场, 躺在病床上一辈子, 有人疼我, 像妈妈一样喂我吃东西, 难受的时候抓住我的手, 说没事儿, 芳芳最坚强.
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"Wad, you not feeling well is it? Dun think too much la, the fang i know is very lively n bubbly person. If you go on like tt will make ppl worried leh.. aiya, wish can meet n tok but me running 4 class sports day 2day, n got co till night aft tt. Cheer up la... if not will haf wrinkles m white hair v fast. hehe, having lect now, if u want then sms lor, gonna play apiano aft this. SMILE:-) "
To the person who sent the above msg to me:
Now u rmber wad u typed in the morning? Hope u dun mind me displaying them here. I told u these words are v. touching because I nearly cried when i read them alone outside the doctor's room. It's like.. finally there is somebody who cares about me, if not really understand me. (well...) Probably u wouldn't think so much when u sent it to me. But it really comforted me alot when I was struggling with the loneliness. A big THANK YOU! *hugz* SMLE :-)
其实, 还有人, 还有人在乎我. 小梨... 不用说了. 我知道她懂我要说什么.
还有, 还有班上的唯一一个主动问我为什么pon sch的人... 至少, 至少看到他留言的时候心里有一点暖, 至少明白有人知道我今天没去上学.. 其实, 心里是很暖很暖.
我会好起来的..
Fang Fang on 4:28 pm